August 2010
3 posts
I need to do this.
Or else things are never going to get better for me.
Looking at my old blogs takes me back to exactly how I felt then.I almost liked it better then.At least I had hope,at least I thought things were so bad solely because I was in school.Now I feel like I just have nothing.Nothing to worry about,and yet nothing to be hopeful for.Back to now, and what I still have to do.
?
I don’t know if I want to start writing again on this like I used to.Last Summer I was just plain obsessed.But my head was also in a much better place than it is now…
Would this actually help me?
I have no idea.
June 2010
3 posts
Change.
This is random but i’m procrastinating from studying and I miss this.
I realize how much i’ve changed and how much has changed for me this year.Too much shit happened in one year,I still can’t digest it.
And i’m still not done.
I still have the hardest days of this year ahead of me.The next two days are going to SUCK.Too many things to get done Drivers...
March 2010
2 posts
I don't know.
I kind of want to delete this,I almost deleted my myspace last night;but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I really don’t like clutter,and I created all of these accounts on the internet that I don’t even use anymore,and I feel like that’s a bad thing. But i’m an idiot who can’t let go of anything,whether it be a blog or a piece of clothing.I don’t get rid...
February 2010
1 post
I haven't been on this in a very long time.
I got myself a journal so I could be able to write and vent wherever I go,so I guess I haven’t really felt the need to use this anymore.I rarely have time to go on my computer,even though typing is much easier-_-This Summer i’ll have a lot more time to go on here and write.I was looking back at old blogs and even if I was unhappy,I wish I could go back.My unhappiness and stress is just...
December 2009
54 posts
Jesus,I haven’t been on in a long time.I guess I’ve been busy/lazy.Hopefully I get the urge to start going on this again.
Not good.
Lately i’ve started to have panic attacks.I’ve had them before because of school and such but I feel like they’re really affecting me.They don’t come on randomly,just during an exam or such when I can’t remember an answer and I just blank out,my heart rate speeds up and my mind dies on me.It’s annoying,and a time waster,and I hate them.I guess I haven’t...
OMFGNO,MILEYCYRUSDESERVESNOTHING.
I can’t even speak to Jackie about Miley Cyrus.I have stopped making comments about her to be nice,because she is her role model.But I will never understand why,why?What has Miley Cyrus done for society,really?I really think Jackie just likes the idea of Miley Cyrus,and forgets the fact of her racy pictures and bitchy ways.Whatever,as long as it keeps her away from drugs and alcohol..
I hate when bad feelings are stirred up again.
Today was not good.
Only five more days.Just five,I just have to maintain my sanity,and then I can get my mind in order over break,after Christmas.With a normal amount of sleep and a clear mind.
WHY IS MY IPOD TAKING SO LONG TO SYNC.
I want to print out my inspirational picture for fashion design,shower,watch the epic iron chef battle with Paula Deen,and sleep.
If tomorrow is bad i’m going to be really annoyed.I don’t want that math test back.I probably just wont look at it until I get home.Crying in school is not an option.God I hate crying for dumb reasons.
I went Christmas shopping todayyyy.
I spent a good amount of money,I get very generous during the holiday season.I have some left,and I still have some stuff to buy.I hope I don’t lose it all by buying too many more things.
I already want this week to be over.
Alright I really need to go shower and go to bed.
I smell like effing latkahs.To be honest,I really didn’t think Melissa’s moms latkahs were that great.I liked the ones I made in cooking last year much better.I can’t even imagine if I told Cheryl that,what she would say.I would probably not have a head right now.Ahahahaha,god that would be a great reaction.Anyway,i’m going Christmas shopping tomorrow:DI love...
And now I am angry.
I don’t like letting ignorant people get to me,but sometimes I get very tired of jerkoffs not accepting gay people.They are so fucking stupid and closed minded,thinking they are being good people.When they are actually being disgusting people who should rot in hell for making others feel like complete shit for being themselves.
/GAH.
I accomplished the DBQ after 2 1/2 hours....
But now I have a math take home test to do tomorrow.
I love how life works.
All Time Low deserves the shit that the WBC is...
lostinpurpose:
timelines:
humbleorphans:
I’d pickit with them too becase ATL are fag enablers. They support the acts of homosexual and anti-heterosexual things. This country needs to be pure and emptied of these people who are unlawfully promoting something that is not christian! All Time Low can burn in hell for all I care. Our generation cannot be destroyed by people like this. We need to...
For those who are just as obsessed with Christmas...
fuckyeahchristmas:
chillyjilly:
iTunes has a free sampler available right now with 20 Christmas songs… plus the single of the week.
Check it out!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.Need.
“Can we talk this over,at least just for tonight?I asked myself one hundred times...”
– Hit the lights-One hundred times<3
PROCRASTINATING.
I don’t want to do this fucking DBQ.I AM NOT GOING TO BED WITHOUT THIS BEING WRITTEN.FORCING MYSELF.YESSS I LIKE ACCOMPLISHING THINGS AND I WILL ACCOMPLISH THIS.
30. Today something remarkable happened.
charmyourwayout:
todayilived:
I watched a sales lady at a clothing store help a beautiful, skinny girl reach a very cute shirt. I didn’t think much about her - she looked like all the other girls at my high school who think they’re the greatest things on the planet because of their long, thick hair and small waists. After giving it to her, I walked up to the sales woman and asked, if it...
Oh god,My blue Heaven reminds me so much of 8th grade.Louder now is such an amazing album.
I dislike these moods when I wish I had a relationship.Sometimes I just get so tired of seeing couples,it seems like everyone else can find someone,so why hasn’t that been able to happen to me?These feelings just come on randomly,and i’m tired of them.I feed them with slow,emotional songs like an idiot.I really shouldn’t be complaining though,I just wish things worked out...
please fill the empty space in my heart.
(via galaxiesofdesire)
I feel like I haven't written in a very long time.
Last night was fun and yet..gross and stressful.Once again I had to help out drunk friends.I hope these kids finally learn their lessons.This week wasn’t that bad,i’m trying to get out of my rut.Tomorrow i’m going to finally get into the full on Christmas spirit.Christmas shopping,and watching holiday movies and hot chocolateee:)So it should be nice.Tonight i’m going to...
“One day, you will die.
You will stop and the world will carry on. Lovers will...”
– via: I wrote this for you (via kari-shma)
I had a mini break down last night.Well,it was a little more than mini…but whatever.Im pretty sure that was my breaking point being reached.So now I’ve been positive today and I think everything will be
better from now on.I was just very overwhelmed and felt so
trapped.I think a lot of shit has just been adding up and finally
got to me.God,I felt so fucked last night.I hope that...
I think my phone knows i'm getting rid of it soon.
Its been saying I have insufficient memory to send pictures and even just texts,and I deleted a lot of shit and it kept saying it.Sorry phone,you’re leaving me whether you let me text now or not.
Gonna go take a shower because I’m freeeeeezing,and then i’ll watch tv and relax and sleeep:)Wooooooo my favorite.Time for an enjoyable monday…
Eh.
I’m in an alright mood.The city was pretty good,it was pretty much what I expected but maybe a little better.I finally think I found the phone I want,it’s pretty sweet and has a good camera,customizable screens,and mobile TV.I’m a little worried about using a touch screen keyboard but I have an itouch so it should be alright.I’m just still fed up with people.I don’t...
