If wit could kill...

I haven’t been on this in a very long time.

I got myself a journal so I could be able to write and vent wherever I go,so I guess I haven’t really felt the need to use this anymore.I rarely have time to go on my computer,even though typing is much easier-_-This Summer i’ll have a lot more time to go on here and write.I was looking back at old blogs and even if I was unhappy,I wish I could go back.My unhappiness and stress is just increasing every week.Now i’m going to have Blue&Gold after school everyday until the end of April,along with awkward Drivers Ed until June.Then the Sat’s,AP tests and regents’ approaching in May and June.I feel like these past four months flew by,which is good and yet..bad.I always knew this time period was going to come where i’d be in school everyday until 5,while preparing for all of my important tests,but now that it’s here,i’m a little freaked out.I don’t know if i’ll be able to handle all of this.The semi-uncomfortable practices,clubs I still hate going to,subjects that I don’t understand,driving in an awkward car while knowing i’m missing something in Blue&Gold.I’m so scared I won’t be able to handle all of this,not that it really matters cause all of it is coming whether I want it to or not.I’m even more afraid of losing myself and my writing during it,because i’ll be so busy worrying about drivers ed,how i’m going to do on my tests and performing in Blue&Gold that i’ll forget about the things that are actually important to me.All I can do it repeat that there are only four months left until I have freedom,carefree living, and the ability to write,be myself and be happy again.If I do everything successfully in these next four months,I can have a very stress free Summer knowing I set myself up for the future well.I am ready to fight for my happiness and success until the school year is over.Confidence is key.