If wit could kill...

Change.

This is random but i’m procrastinating from studying and I miss this.

I realize how much i’ve changed and how much has changed for me this year.Too much shit happened in one year,I still can’t digest it.

And i’m still not done.

I still have the hardest days of this year ahead of me.The next two days are going to SUCK.Too many things to get done Drivers ed,finals,studying.Then I have my three regents’ next week and I am legitimately nervous.I really hope i’m just getting worked up for nothing and everything works out, but I feel like that might not happen this time.At least I only have 3 days left.Regents’ will suck but they’re only 2 or 3 hours.I just need to do this for myself and i’ll finally be free from all of this bullshit.I miss writing so much,I hate not being able to focus solely on it.It’s driving me crazy.Soon i’ll finally be able to think freely again,without worrying about pointless school constantly.I am done having High school be the control of my life and emotions.Next year is going to be treated very differently,because i’ll be a senior,and in a different position than I am in now.

I just want to be able to focus on the things I truly care about.I can’t believe how lost I became this year.I need to get everything I had back,and I will.This’ll be over soon..